If I may borrow from both Jewish and Christian tradition here. Today begins my jubilee year, my 50th year on this little planet.
I've never been one to agonize over my age. It never bothered me, turning 30 or 40 or whatever number it might be. But deep down, I wondered if turning 50 would bother me, even if just a tiny bit. It's a milestone. I tried torturing myself with numbers - "20 years ago you were thirty and so young, now in 20 years you'll be 70". Taunted myself with concepts - "you have more time behind you than before you."
Despite all that, I still really can't get negative about it. I'm alive, in my right mind (oh, hush!), in reasonably good shape physically, I have no major health issues. My knees have been bad for 20 years, my hair gray for 15 so I'm accustomed to that.
Every year for many years, I have taken a birthday trip. It was my present to myself. Now, wandering around National Forests and climbing mountains might not appeal to everyone. For me, and luckily, for Jason, treks into the vast beauty of the rapidly disappearing wilds of this country are soothing, spiritual times.
My past birthday trips lead many who know me to ask, "Why Amsterdam?"
Well, the truest answer is simple. I wanted to see the Van Gogh Museum.

Photo by me.
I wanted to stand before
"Wheat Field with Crows" and see the brush strokes that Van Gogh's own hand created.
The more complex answer is a jumbled mix of feelings, assumptions, intuitions and hopes that can't be easily identified with mere words. It was a bold step (for me)to travel overseas. There was a vague familial stirring as many of my ancestors came from the Nordic/Germanic regions. There was the idea that I could let go of being a philosophical outcast in my hometown. Plus, there was just the exhilaration of walking into the unknown.
And it was all that and more.
Beauty, whether natural or man-made, is still beauty. If you can stop and see it.

Photo by me.

Photo by me.

Photo by
JAZ (but you could tell, huh?)
A wonderful adventure to kick off this, my Jubilee Year.